It’s late. Way too late. This has nothing to do with the songs post (or maybe it does….), but, my mind is going. Fast. Therefore, thoughts need to escape the institution that my mind can be. I’m thinking about two things. Who I am. And who I want to be. I see these two people… they look the same to some people. They maybe even talk the same and heck, wear the same clothes. But, really, they are pretty different. I’m not as committed as I want to be. I’m not as in love with God and His commands as I want to be. I’m not a person who stands up for what is right, all the time. I’m not, I’m not, I’m not…..
And here’s the thing. I was thinking about who I’m not and also what it would look like to see the “not” changed to “am”, and a funny thought struck my heart/mind. “What if…. I’m… not ready… to be the person I want to be…???” Hmmm…. Am I? Am I not?
I feel like I’m so quick to point out my flaws. Then, the next day (or even the next hour), I’m so quick to point out all the amazing things I’ve done. Am I ever happy? Or, on the other hand, am I ever not ok? I feel like my mind is in a constant struggle to figure out who I am and why I’m not who I want to be. And I know that in this I am not alone. I’ve said it before, but, we live in a culture that is SO quick to point out the bad in everything that we almost always miss what is good. We see a movie and it’s good, but I didn’t like the ending. Or we get a new CD and I love this artist but the second to last song was horrible. etc. etc. But when do we ever look at something, as horrible as the situation may be, and think about the good happening? Or the good to come? Ever?
Anyway…. “What if I’m not ready?” I think that I want to see myself become this great thing. And I want it today. But God is watching me live my life and knows that I can’t be “D” without “A”, “B” and “C” happening first. And not to say that it’s a formula on how to become Godly, cuz it’s not. But, I do know that there are steps that need to be taken to get to a certain place. We can never just arrive one day and look back and see no work being done to get there. There must be a process, and, more importantly, I think, there must be faithfulness to that process. Commitment to the process. Even a love for the process that God has me going through in my life.
So here in my challenge. To love where God has you RIGHT NOW. To see the next step that HE wants you to take and take it. Know that we must follow His process if anything fruitful is ever going to happen. And allow God to, day by day, make us into the people He created us to be. Don’t get down on one bad day. Don’t give up if we don’t see results. But press into God and give Him the praise that belongs to Him.
Striving to be more of who I’m to be today,
Morgan
Bro,
Just to let u know, your amazing in all you do. Keep fighting the fight and God will show u exactly who you are and what you are about. Don’t ever forget that we all are with you. As well as watching you every step of the way. Keep up the good work. Love you bro.
Word! SO important to remeber that God cares about us being the person He needs us to be when we get to whatever destination He has for us, but not more than He cares about the person we are becoming today as we move toward that destination. Good stuff, bro.
Thanks biz. I needed to be reminded of this